Just writing....

Hey y'all!  I feel like I've really been lazy these days, sorry I haven't posted in a while! I figured today would be a great day to post since I'm at my house listening to some good music.  So beyond relaxing!  That's when I like to write the most because my mind is really clear.  I was watching an episode of"Push Girls" last night, and it go me thinking.  The theme of the episode was about stem cell research and the wheelchair community.  I know that stem cell research has always been a controversial and political issue. To be honest with you, if I had the opportunity to have stem cells help me walk, I have no idea what I would do.  I think that it would be really cool to walk obviously, but in my mind, the lord made me this way for a reason.  I have to go through my life with purpose.  As much as I bitch and complain about how much being in a wheelchair sucks, I have gotten to do some pretty cool things!  From a very young age, my father always told me, "use your chair to your advantage!" The lord gave you a set of legs that didn't work great, but my god, did he give you a ridiculous intellect"  I hate the fact that some people are shocked to hear that I am okay with the lord made me!  Those people that are shocked are usually the ones that are closest to me!  I wish they would just lay off. I honestly think that's why it has taken me so long to accept myself for the way I am.  It really makes me sad when I am meeting a group of new people, and the ones closest to me make me feel as though I can't get to know  these new people, because those close to me view me as still very young because I need so much help.  Because of this, I usually act no like myself when I meet new people and the ones that still see me as a little girl are around.  I am so happy to start at UMBC in the fall!  I know the lord has some big plans ahead for me, I can't wait to see what they are!  Today in fact, I took another big step toward independence, I decided to apply for a service dog through Canine Companions for Independence.  It will be a crazy long process. I am waiting to see if I am even a candidate.  I don't see why I wouldn't be  though.  Time will tell!
Until next time
~C